Sami's Sunday Ramblings

Hi!!!!!

I hope you're all enjoying what looks like summer!! I can't say spring now because we're in June! Apparently we skipped over spring this year. Whatever. It's sunny and that is awesome.

Where to start...?

The blog is now in it's second month of being advertised with the amazing Tattooed Tea Lady! Her blog is fast becoming my bible for skincare. I love her style - and her tattoos, of course! - and honestly have no idea how she has it in her to commute to university everyday! Superwoman! So, a huuuuuuuge thank you to her for giving this little blog some more exposure! <3 :)

A big, big thank you to all of my new followers! It really is so wonderful to have you here! I will definitely be holding my first giveaway at 50 GFC followers. I know most bloggers do it at 100 but that's because for whatever reason they're much better and hooking in readers than me.... Ha.

I got off to a bit of a slow start after coming back from Center Parcs, but I think things are getting back to normal now. I can't help but find it funny that a relaxing break away left me so fatigued. Of course, writing about mental health topics is very hard and draining, but I hope that buried in my posts is some advice that people can take away and use.

I think right now I'm having a bit of a crisis of confidence, but that probably stems from putting a bit more of myself 'out there'. Honestly, I don't know how else to really give advice without drawing from my own personal experiences, and on some level I wonder if hearing what it's really like is actually helpful and reassuring.

I believe in what I'm doing but I don't know if I'm going about it the right way.

In other news: my medication is messing with my moods, anxiety and sleep cycle. As soon as I start struggling with my sleep, I know something is wrong. It started out with not being able to stay asleep, but it's progressed into insomnia and being in bed until gone midday. I tried using Nytol but it doesn't like the high level of venlafaxine in my system and I get horrible sweats and restlessness, where I literally have to move my arms and legs. Horrible when you're trying to settle down and sleep.

I had something of a lightbulb moment last night; I wondered if taking 150mg at night was too stimulating for my brain, so I've swapped my doses around. At doses of over 225mg venlafaxine behaves more like a tricyclic antidepressant, and I do remember having to take larger doses in the morning so we'll see how it goes. Right now, I feel very medicated and woozy... o_O

I am absolutely terrified of relapsing back into a severe depression. I also don't want to admit that things are getting bad again, but that would make me a giant hypocrite. So, I am planning to call the day hospital tomorrow and speak to my occupational therapist. With any luck she can have a quick talk with me either before or after art group on Tuesday.

So there's that! I don't think there's much else in terms of news, so I'll stop rambling now and go seek out some coffee.

Until next time! <3

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